It's all about relationship...

Today is valentine's day... So this post is definitely gonna be something on love amongst 'n' number of other posts that are gonna flow today...

Love - Yeah.. It's a quintessential of perfect complexity... A word that brings butterflies in stomach, feels like being on cloud # 9 for someone, pain in the heart, tears in the eye for someone... Sometimes both...

Hey...B4 that I jus wanna visit my 2009 V day's post... Time flies by... Huh.. Too fast...

Love... It's a locus searching for particular coordinates in a 3D space... Once valid coordinates have been found, it can satisfy most complex, illogical, irrational equations... But sometimes it fails to satisfy even a simple equation in life.... When one or more coordinates completely mismatches the rest... So what are these coordinates? 2 living beings/things and the bond that binds them... The bond... Most important one.. Generally failures happen because of wrong bonding... The bond may take any value, friendship, infatuation, soulmate, lust, etc etc etc... But the 2 persons who are linked by this bond should definitely be aware of these bonding...

We see couples everywhere... In temples, beaches, coffee shops, discotheque,,, Sometimes moving freely, sometimes with a hint of fear... Focusing just on the prenuptial soulmate relationship of a boy and a girl, I've just broadly categorized few types of love... Hey.. This's just my perception... This is my blog and I have the right to express my views... :-)

The perfect couples
These guys, met by chance or fate or anything, know they are made for each other... They'll cherish the beauty of love, make the impossible possible, travel the entire journey of life with rejoice, never give up on each other, always gives the best to each other... Whatever happens, they'll stay together forever forever in their life...

The Pseudos
Hmmmm... They too know the truth that they are not made for each other... For them, love is just an avocation, a pastime... They just need a company for time being... They are also clear in their thoughts... A defined path awaits them... They just part their ways at the right time and never look back at their past... As simple as this...

The patsy and the shammer
Oh my... The type that I hate the most... Either the boy or the girl will be bedazzled by the other... It's a mixture of cat#1,2... One from cat #1 and the other from cat # 2... One is serious and ready to give his/her life to the other and the second one just enjoys his/her company and wants to get rid of this relationship at some part of life... Here one will be seriously hurt while for the other it's just a passing cloud, water in the stream...

The flummoxed
The crazy thing... They don't know what they are upto... They can't clearly define their relationship... They don't even know whether it's love or friendship or infatuation or just nothing... They not only confuse themselves but also their surrounding environment... They are simply perplexed, not knowing their bonding... They may end up as cat # 1 or cat # 2.. Their situation is just as the situation of a cat on the wall...

Well apart from these there are many guys or gals who tell others that they hate love, or they are in search of love, or some despos who are madly in search of a relationship or few guys who were in cat # 1 and finally end up in a breakup due to some strange stupid reasons... Am not gonna talk abt them... Probably I will, in my future posts...

What am I gonna do today...??? I feel like spending this evening in thiruvanmiyur beach, the place I won't forget in my life... But I won't...

And for u... If you wanna read a soothing,poignant, love story on this very special day, please read 'I too had a love story' by Ravinder Singh...

An ending quote (from the same novel),
Not everyone in this world has the fate to cherish the fullest form of love. Some are born, just to experience the abbreviation of it...

Paradigm shift in tamil cinema

I actually decided to write about something else but finally ended up writing this cos of various reasons...

Am a real movie buff and an avid fan of Selvaraghavan... So I watched his latest venture 'Ayirathil Oruvan', the very first day... I liked the movie like anything... Especially the second half of the movie... I should say, he has framed a new paradigm for tamil cinema... None has given such a well crafted movie of this genre in tamil industry...




Mostly the movies that revolves around history will only concentrate on past factual events... Or some movies of treasure hunt genre will purely be fictitious... But this is a perfect mixture of history and fiction, which makes it first of it's kind in tamil film industry...

One can see Selva's hard work in collecting all the facts and associating it with modern science... wow... He should be really proud of his work... Especially the second half, which totally portrays a new tone compared to the first half... The sequences, the taking... I should say, it's simply amazing to see such kind of movies in tamil rather than the typical masala type movies... Also the music is really soothing,... My favorite is 'Celebration of life' which is just enchanting...

But this movie is receiving mixed reviews.... While watching the second half, most of the guys in the theater were really pissed off and they actually wanted to leave the hall asap...I dunno why... I was totally into the movie surprised at the taking of the movie... But most of the guys didn't like it at all... I didn't really want to hear those and enjoyed the movie till the end...

Later I tried to get others opinion as I really wanted to know the reason for their acts... From their reviews I noticed that there are few flaws in the movie... Especially the difference in tone... the first half is entirely different from the second half... Everyone who watched the first half with that zeal will definitely expect the second half to have something like a 'Time travel' or 'A splendid flash back' or 'Reincarnation stories'... But in contrast Selva gave a new tone to the movie that completely ignores the tone of first half... Though he gave it as a surprise element, most of the audiences are not able to digest the complete shift in tone... Also the way he portrayed few sequences in climax... Hmmmm... He should have given a second thought about it...

When I tried to explain these things to few persons, they were not accepting it... Instead they thought I was just trying to be different by praising this movie... Ha ha ha... why should I??? Is Selva paying me to do this??? But few guys , I should say like minded guys... They really enjoyed the movie the same way I enjoyed it... So am not being different... Thank god... And when we discussed few things, we ended up in praising the same scenes that I enjoyed the most...

To wind up, am not saying this is a movie that will be liked by everyone... It's only for miniscule audience... But one can definitely watch it for the Selva's hard work...

Gibbers

Fell in love and it's time to rise...

Let me dream about u...
Let me hold ur hand...
Let me walk with u...
Let me live with u...
That would be the best part of my life....

The moments we laughed together...
The moments we exchanged our views...
The moments you leaned on my shoulder...
The moments you held my hand...
Dreaming what we were....
All those golden moments for making strangers outta us????

You stole my heart...
You stole my memories...
You stole my senses...
You stole my soul...
You stole me...
Now without all these,,, How can i survive???

It's strange to know that you have selective amnesia...
It's even stranger that you can actually select what you wanna forget..,


Its flowing thru my veins,,,
Its crawling in my heart...
Its growing as i grow...
Its smothering in my mind...
I don wanna live with it...
I don wanna live without it...
I jus wanna remember it... Till my end...
Mixed with my soul....


You played all the strings of my heart,,,
Now my heart has become mute without u...

All bad has a good thing in it....
And all good has a bad thing in it...

Am trying to forget u...
But am remembering u every moment..
I love u every time you come to my mind..
Oh yes... I love you every moment...
Why this to me???

Am searching for you everywhere...
But am not able to find u...
Am losing you when i search u...
so i stopped searching you...
So you can be with me always...

I've always been with you when u needed me...
Now you are not with me when i need you badly...

The one who loved all the stupid and simple things in me is now hating the whole of me....

She understood all the complex things in me that I found difficult to put in words....

I know am nothing,...
But the girl with me is more than anything...
Knowing this made me something....

Am missing all the sweet disturbances I had.....
What's life without those tiny little disturbances..??

Am falling in love with you each and every moment I think about you...

Before,
Even a single thought about u brought me butterflies in my stomach....
Now,
Even a single thought about u is bringing me tears....

Often am thinking of being with u....
Sometimes it feels better than heaven...
And sometimes it's worse than hell....

Love means never having to say you're sorry

Hmmm... It's been very long time since i completely indulged myself into a good book... I had only been a bathroom reader these days....

Great poet Mahakavi once said,

காலை எழுந்தவுடன் படிப்பு
பின்பு கனிவு கொடுக்கும் நல்ல பாட்டு
மாலை முழுதும் விளையாட்டு
என பழக்க படுத்தி கொள்ள பாப்பா

And am following this earnestly... Yes... As soon as i wake up, I search for the book kept near my bed, go to the bathroom, switch on the FM player in the bathroom and enjoy both the book and the music while attending nature's call.... And hell yes... Still am spending my evenings in gym....
But am not able to enjoy the continuity of any book because of this interrupted reading... Last Sunday (15th Nov 2009) I badly wanted to read a book at one stretch... But I couldn't go out to get a new book since it was raining like hell... One of my roommates has got few books...

Before continuing this, I must tell something about that sloth... He and I have a common taste when it comes to Movies and Books... Just these two I guess... But he's the lazzzzzzziest guy in our room who really find it difficult to make up his own bed when he wakes up... Hmmmm... May be the second laziest guy... He got a forerunner (obviously not me)... But he's good at one thing as far as am concerned... He's good at finding the download source for the movies... Just name the movie... He'll download the best print one can ever find... :-) Thanks for all his efforts without which I couldn't have watched most of the movies... And yes.... Thanks in advance for the upcoming downloads... :-)

Oh yes... Till now I could only find little relation between the topic and the content.... K fine... Let me come to the point... Where was I??? Yes... He got chetan Baghat's new venture "2 states"... I've always loved chetan's works and i know it for sure this book won't be boring.... He was reading the last part... In the mean time i thought of reading some other book... I badly needed to quench my reading urge.... I checked the mini library (may be around 30 to 40 books, i should have used the word micro mini library!!!) in our home... There I found "Love Story" by Erich Segal... It's the smallest book (less # of pages) there and that was the real reason why I chose to read that book in first place... I read one of the reviews in the back cover.... It read "This is for those Who were in luv, who are in luv, who will be in luv"... I got 2 out of 3 (am not gonna tell which 2)... So obviously I got to read this...

The very first line itself stole me.... When am reading the book I could feel some kinda similarity between this novel and Alaipayuthey movie... I guess Maniratnam has beautifully crafted this story to fit perfectly for Indian audiences... One could taste romance in each and every dialogue between Oliver and Jenny (the couples)... One could feel the joy and pain of love more than they actually need.... Hmmm... It may seem like am exaggerating things here... May be am... But one should really read this book once to feel the real color of love... I just can't get my eye out of the book in the last ten pages... No words to describe it actually... Oh yes... The topic of this post is none other than the tag line of this novel...

Then I googled to get details about this book and found that paramount pictures actually made a movie with the same title... Hurray... Downloaded it and watched it without any second thought... As usual the screen version is bit shorter than the paper version, but i loved the chemistry between the couples...

Generally when we are madly after something/someone we will be forced to get more details about the same and we wanted to remain in the same feeling for sometime.... That happened to me in this case... After I read that book, I couldn't stop myself to go and read another love story... Then i started with "2 states"... That's also a nice love story to read... The gist given in the back cover of the book simply tells you the entire story... But my quest for love stories didn't stop after this...

The next day I visited landmark in my office and got another book... "Those small lil things in love and life" by Rahul Saini... Oh yes... That's not up to the level I expected... Now I've started with my 4th novel in love genre... "Nothing for you my dear, Still I love u" by Arpit Dugar.... Les see where this's gonna take me....

Strange event???

This is an interesting thing happened probably some 4 or 5 months back...

My Dad, Mom, Bro and I went to visit my grandparents in Trichy... After the visit, we boarded the bus to my place... We were in a bus comfortably sitting.... Our bus was about to start and suddenly my brother told that the other bus standing next to ours will reach before ours... So we thought of moving to that one and we did that in a hurry...

The first bus left the bus stand and we were in this new bus... This bus also started and after 30 mins of journey my mom told us that she missed her reticule... We thought she had some useless things in that bag.. But to our surprise she told that she had money around Rs.2500 in that bag... We searched the entire bus and found nothing... Later she told that she might have missed it in the previous bus while trying to get down in a hurry... So that's the end of the story... We thought somebody is lucky enuf to get that money.. We started yelling at my mom... Finally my mom told that it's her hard earned money and that will come to her if that's destined... We all slept except my brother.. Cos he thought it was his mistake asking us to move to other bus at the last moment... He was checking each and every bus we passed and passing us to see if that was the bus we boarded initially... Nothing helped...

Finally we reached our place and tried to lodge a complaint in Transport security office... We waited there for some 30 mins and nobody came there... It was around 10:30 P.M.. Finally we went to information center and told them about the incident... They started asking us about the bus #, conductor name etc etc etc.. Have someone noted down the bus number before boarding the bus??? That was a lesson.... It might help us one way or the other... After this incident i made it as a practice to note down the bus #, before boarding the bus... And finally they told us to forget about the money... This was the thing told by them...

"Are you still believeing that you will get your money back???"
"You are in 21st century and you know the general tendency of people ..."
"Even if someone gives back the bag to us it's not sure they will return it with money.."

We lost the hope and reached home... A surprise was waiting for us... Our servant maid told us that someone called and told that he is having a handbag that was found in the bus... Oh yes... A sigh of relief... We are not sure who he is... My mom had her visiting card in that bag that had our home landline number... Still we were not sure that we will get our money back or not... But anyways... Let's give it a try....

Next day morning... A middle aged man in his 40s came to our house.... He handed over that bag to my mom... My mom had her IMA ID card in that bag that had her photo... So he verified the face and gave the bag to my mom... He told us to check everything... None will believe it... Not even a single paise was missing... My gosh.,.. I was like... 'Oh my god'... Still we have these kind of human beings in the world... I thanked him and got his name... Anbukkarasu...

He told that he got this bag in the bus and asked everyone sitting near him... Later he got the card in that bag and thought of giving it in-person since the card had the address... He told that he called previous night to make us not to worry about the bag.... Such a wonderful human being...

Everyone in our family thanked him and finally told him that we are in his debt...

Dream vs Reality

This is probably the shortest post of mine...

I just had a thought today... Most of us are worrying about making our dream come true... Like our ex-president Dr. APJ rightly said, it's better to dream.. Doing so will make us achieve better...

But am not sure if anyone thinks like this... Why can't things happened in real life just vanish like a dream???

I know it's bit eccentric... But this thought swirls over my mind again and again... Most of the time in my sleep i do believe that am dreaming something... But when i wake up, it's hard to accept that its already happened... :-(

With perseverance we can make our dream, a reality...
But never in our life a reality can be changed to a dream... It will stay with us forever...

Back from Quietus

Yes... I've been a torpid for the past 3 to 4 months... Why??? Just crossed a new stage of my life... Oneway its good, in other way it hurts a lot...
But its jus a new experience i shoud say....

Hmmm... Where should i start??? K... Lemme start with the day when i landed in my home country... Its been 2 years since i had a fresh breath of Indian air...
I clicked most of the places where i've been in tampa right from my cubicle till office privy :-)... Started from there with lotsa expectations and delight....

In NY, they asked me to check in my cabin bag since it's too heavy... And so i did..... From NY to Dubai i just ate 3 times, watched around 5 movies... I cant sleep cos of the anticipation.... And finally landed in Dubai... Had a nice experience in Dubai... I was waiting to board the connecting flight to Chennai... There came an announcement.... They were actually calling a passenger whose name is bit different.... I thought they were calling some muslim name... After 4th time the same announcement was made i realized that they were actually calling me... How embarrassing???? Everyone might have thought am deaf... Oh my god...

It was 27th April 2009 exactly at 3:15 AM when my flight landed in chennai... With swadesh background (jus inside my heart, he he he...) i stood in emigration Q... There were 4 general Qs and 1 special Q for physically challenged and senior citizens... There came our guy.... One guy in khaki uniform came near me and asked me whether am interested in jumping the general Q and join the special Q.. I jus thought for a second.. Am not a physically challenged guy and hell not am a senior citizen... Then why this guy is asking me to join the special Q??? Then i realised... Oh yes... Am back to India... Then i said am fine with this Q... Later he got another guy who is interested to move to the special Q and he was given a special respect... The khaki guy even carried his bag for him.. That's what we call customer service... Ha ha ha....
I know it's too much... Let's stop this...

So this is the most sentimental moment for me... Yes.. Am meeting my mom, bro and my dad after 2 years... I also saw few of my friends faces there... Yep... It was really a nice moment to see all of em after a very long time... But everyone was in a state of astonishment to see the slenderized version of me... ;-P

That morning was the most exciting moment for me... I jus had a quick nap and woke within 2 or 3 hours... I met someone whom i was dying to meet... I really can't express it in words... It's a feeling to be rejoiced..... Don wanna say more about it... I still remember that day... That will be remembered by me forever....